Tag: life

spring

today’s outlook

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This is a photo I’ve taken dozens of times.
It’s the closest I can get to what I’m describing.

It’s a little like when you glance downstairs late at night, and everything is dark. Everything in your full vision, everything that’s both central and peripheral, everything that’s in your soul, it’s all whispers and dark shadows. Dark as the night.

Except that now everything is dazzling bright, and green as a spring day. A full, mature, all-encompassing spring. When I sit at my computer these days and look out over the top of the monitor to what’s outdoors…everything’s the look of spring green. It’s mottled, of course, not one page of flat green construction paper. Patches of dark and bright, and everything in between, shimmering in the breeze. It’s a vision chock-full of spring.

It reminds me of that warm summer day when I went down by the stream, and the water was shining in my eyes in full reflection mode, mirroring the neon dreamy color of all the surrounding shrubs and trees. It reminds me of the time I stood under a weeping willow tree and looked up for comfort to the leafy green strands cascading towards me. A full vision, packed with the wondrous embrace of eternity.

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grace

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Sometimes I write like grace is right there. Grace, magic, and our souls. It’s there, there, and there. As if we can access it, if we just reach out, and look to the stars scattered among the tops of the trees.

Silly me. Grace isn’t that easy, is it? It’s elusive. It’s the imploring anguish. ‘Please’, and ‘please’, and the most exhausted, begging, pleading words in the world, ‘please’. That’s where the grace lies. It’s a sad, painful place that spills out from the very bottom of our souls. It’s a moment when we walk along the beach, surrounded only by honest desperation. The ebb and flow of infinity, and all we have to offer is truth and a desperate plea. When you don’t know if you need more wine, xanex, or whatever can carry you to the next step.

The stuff of grace.

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night sky

a pocketful of starlight

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Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket.
Never let it fade away.
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket.
Save it for a rainy day.
— Perry Como (1957), written by Paul Vance/Lee Pockriss.

[My thoughts from a December evening, a few months ago, during the Geminid Meteor Shower.]

I debated whether I wanted to go outside in the cold again, but I felt moved. Unlike last night, I’d wear a scarf this time, and zip my jacket, and I’d sit, make myself comfortable, in my summer deck chair.

Just what I did.

Clearly, it was starry. The sky was beautiful and the night around me felt wonderful. I was glad I was there.

Less than a minute, and I saw the moving flash to my right…behind the tree branches in my next door neighbor’s yard. Enough to make me gasp. It wasn’t the kind of meteor where you’re not sure you saw it. This was bright and clear, and it arced, fading along the way, to the right. Shooting stars are what they are. A second’s worth of something magical about the universe. Not the kind of magic we see with our imaginations. But the real deal.

I sat and looked to see if there would be more. And the dark sky, with shimmering stars loosely scattered among the tall branches, was more exquisite, I believe, than the meteor itself. The very reason we go outside late, on a cold December night. A pocketful of starlight. I was glad I was there.

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dreams

angel wings

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Weary. Wasn’t sleeping last night,
My soul wandering,
It wandered about time,
And it scared me a trifle. [It scared me exceedingly.]
Couldn’t figure how to place things.
What’s real? What belongs with my dreams.
Pink chiffon and music,
Footsteps …
And angel wings.

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guitars, music

the basics

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Sometimes you hear accomplished and celebrated musicians talk about the first chord they learned to play. I’ve heard Paul McCartney talk about when The Beatles only knew three chords. It makes me remember we’re all people. The same basic genes. We all start out the same. How can these musicians remember their first chord? I don’t even remember my first chord. I’m sure it was A, A minor, or C, maybe F, but I don’t really remember my first chord. Maybe E??? E minor? House of the Rising Sun?? No, not House of the Rising Sun. Possibly Blowin’ in the Wind, or Cruel War. Some Peter, Paul & Mary Song. 
So maybe there’s still hope for me? Maybe not. I’ve been at this a long time. But there will always be a special place in my heart for guitar chords and picking guitar strums. 
For those moments when we as individuals think everyone seems so much better than us, we can remember we all start with an A, an A minor, or a C. Maybe an E. Your first guitar strum. Yeah, just like that. Where I’m heading, I don’t know, but there’s the basic stuff we all had to learn when we start out.

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seasons

a little bit of February

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Maybe February is there for these very thoughts. When my physical body is weary, exhausted, and my heart feels heavy…which means, I guess, my eyes feel weighty. Which means what? I feel sad? Sorry? Knowing those deliberate thoughts of encouragement, and visuals of twinkly stars and wintry tall branches, knowing these aren’t enough to re-set my frame of mind.

Maybe perennials need the cold dormant period of winter to find energy for a new spring. Maybe I need February to get through to the other side of my mood.

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memories

January

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All the snow has turned to water
Christmas days have come and gone
Broken toys and faded colors
Are all that’s left to linger on
  ~ John Prine, Souvenirs ~

Souvenirs was my introduction to John Prine. I loved the sound, I loved his words. I love the way it transports my soul to a place many years ago, holds me in a place not so distant, and soothes everything about where I am today.

Those first lines of the song sound like the melancholy of January to me, and the images that follow feel like the way we cling to our precious memories and view life through what we remember of the past. Broken hearts and dirty windows, etc.

Just some of my favorite lines. Thank you, John Prine.

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2024, Southern Cross

the promise of a coming day

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a visiting dark swallowtail (summer 2023)

If I could build them a shelter, I would, so they can stay alive in the winter. It doesn’t work like that, though. As they say, such is life. Such is their lifecycle.

I’d like to believe my sweet butterflies live out a gentle life after they are done here, after sucking nectar from my flowers, enough to fly off to a wonderful exotic southern location, where they can winter over, and live on, however butterflies can live on.  Not so. They live a few weeks, or however long it takes to fulfill their lifecycles, and then flutter off into nothing, wherever their spirits take them. I don’t want to think they’re gone, not just gone from my flowers, but gone, dead and gone, for good.

Does it help that, once, once I loved my sweet butterflies? I think so. I think it matters that once I so loved my sweet butterflies. That they said, don’t look down, dear…hold on…and I saw and heard, and I held on, and I so loved my butterflies.

They should have a place, my butterflies, they should have a place to flutter among exotic flowers in a place where the Southern Cross takes its place in the night sky. It would have to be a sunny spot in the day. My butterflies like the sun.

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Southern Cross, Crosby, Stills and Nash (1982).
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