coping, life, writer's block, writing

you gotta fight for the write

March 24, 2020, 1 am

Tonight I felt like I just had to write.

I don’t write everyday, just when I have something to say. Maybe that’s not best, but it’s me. For a while now, a week, maybe two, since all the virus quarantine social distancing non-stop 24/7, I didn’t want to write. I get like that when life’s too much. I feel a little shaky, my stomach jittery, my brain lazy. Maybe I should fight the malaise and the brain freeze, but I almost never ever do.

Eventually and inevitably, it happens. In a snap. In the time it takes for the brain to wake up. The writing bug kicks in, and I know I have to write.

For me it usually happens with a song, a great song, great words, one of the great song writers. And I always, always, think the same thing — I wish I could write one great song. Well, I can tell you that will never ever happen. The next thought is pretty much always the same — I need to write. Just like that. Not I want to write. I need to write.

So….

About what?
About what?

Hmmm….
Hmmm….

Tomorrow.
Tomorrow I’ll find something to write.

8 thoughts on “you gotta fight for the write”

  1. You did write this and that’s how it always start. This reminds me of Sumire from Murakami’s novel ‘Sputnik Sweetheart’ she needs to write to process her emotions and is always driven she goes through spells of not writing and spells if writing profusely when inspired.
    Have written something during this isolation period myself would love your review on it.
    https://aroundtheworldinthecouch.wordpress.com/

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  2. I feel your pain… too well. Last year, I decided I wasn’t going to allow myself to turn in on myself and not write. It doesn’t have to be fiction that I write, or for very long, I just have to get some words down. Normally, it’s in a journal app and I just write what’s bugging me, or try to figure out on the page why I can’t write. A few days of that tends to get me unstuck–and gets rid of the weird anxious feeling in my body.

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